So normaly i am a very confident person when it comes to women,other social situations.
About 3 years ago i was a freshman in highschool, chatted up with a senior girl a bit to much, one thing went to another and as people often do exagerate the situation to her 17 yea old boyfriend. At the time i was 14, Got blind sided in the ear by a 6"2 180 pounds guy , bounced my head off a wall and pounded my face till he was pulled off. I recovered physicaly in around 2 weeks.
Afterwards i always had a problem around large groups of people, i feel like i have to know exactly where everyone around me is, and what they are doing. But on a very jumpy level.
This went on for around 3 months of me dealing with this and then i had a breaking point.
Didnt really know why but being on edge 24/7 for that long really messed with my personality.
Saw a few doctors about it, worked on myself, and thought i had it worked out. Next year went back to school and 4 months later, boom same thing.
The stress is just on such a subliminal level that i dont realize it until im at the breaking point.
The latest episode was getting so stressed my heart stopped and i passed out,puked,and was really in a bad way for weeks.
Im really tired of this happening so i got into fighting,self defence to build confidence.
But in certain situations i still get that old feeling.
I saw that richard said in "Real Outlaws" that he had a similar experience in a club, and i was wondering if anyone has any advice thats been there before and worked through it.
Thanks for reading all that and much appreciated
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