Richie wisely figured out this formula--getting a student to grow
without hurting him, burning him out [him/her implied], but also
not making the conditions too gentle.
i have yet to figure this one out. it behooves me to set some
cash aside for his beta8. sequencial layered building blocks of
sound growth for the student. i've used a few of his concerning
grappling--otherwise i'd have little to offer in this area.
it's the end of the productive year. those near 18 yr olds that i had
are all trying to slither away without being obvious--burned out and
mildly gleeful at the prospect of not having me chucking them all
over the grass--shouting out 10 drills of drive backs, etc... i'm a bit
OCD for the idea that a student should be able to say, "if i can handle
what my teacher puts out, than i'm not worried about this..."
my few paying customers are in the bracket that leaves for the summer.
everyone is fazing out. my one or two that joined at the end and still
haven't realized what a burden 'consistency' and 'endurance' is...well, i'm
also going away, so they'll have to imagine how they'd have been able
to do what the others couldn't. i set the bait for september...several lower
income guys who couldn't afford their MMA classes. "it's free from me but
you can't miss a class"...a deal with the devil. they leave imagining that they'd
come back and say 'yeah, i'm up for it'. maybe one or two will. these guys
represent my training for me. i'm up front about it. i tell them nothing is free
and this is they're payment--they're helping me and i'm helping them.
now i'll be self training, probably enjoying not lighting metaphorical fires
under people's toes, but missing it all the same.
still trying to get that vid together before they all run away. my tech geek is
saying i have to wait until the school year breaks [school equipment] which
might be too little too late.
there's a symbol in the i-ching that is described in meaning as, "the sun
sets at mid-day...and i think the implications are that the sigmoid curve
has been reached for this lot, and the sunset approaches.
i guess i'm guilty of running these shows like boot camp. paying customers
get the gentler version. bitter/sweet that. wish i could find some sadists who
paid me to make their collective lives miserable, but such is the lot of a teacher
who presumably worries about the finished product more than the student has
an idea to.
reflections of an old wood tick, me.
what i've learned is maybe to present warnings, have one day in about 8 that
represent misery--well warned in advance. emotionally people can ready themselves
for this. but all things said, i think my 'shit hits the fan' style has readied them
for many things relating to dealing with shit-storms.
and chinamasta me, i've had alot of nice trainings from it all, benefiting me. it must
be a symbiotic relationship or i just wouldn't have it in me. i feel that all are intitled to
pressurizing, even the teacher. in reality, it isn't a particularly hard class for those who
have decided it's what they want. it's on the normal side of RBSD. but for those expecting
team outings to the mall at the food court, mock tournaments, and light air sparring--i
suppose it was a drastic introduction into the odd world of self defense.
i'm turning the lights out, the counters have been wiped down, i'm looking back once
to remember some of the rituals that came out of this year...and i'll probably get something
committed to journals after this year. the upside is that my bosses that were mildly aware
of what i was doing for some of their at risk oafie high school kids--have offered me a year
long version that can serve as credits. they've insisted on two conditioning days, and two
actual SD subject days--perhaps anticipating the burn out as well [four days a week from
the hypothetical older high school kids. this i look forward to.
in korea, they've have 5 years of TKD before they finish high school--offered by the school
system. i'm selling my school on a idea like this--which will invariably be marred by some belt
system, and all the hierarchical bullshit that comes with it. but at least i'm doing what i like.
which, incidentally never pays--if money is what you're after. it does pay if experience is.
EDIT///
i just found out that my school has okay'd my SD highschool class--they're calling
it [brace yourself]
MARTIAL ARTS/BOOT CAMP
ha ha ha ha ha
i'm happy about it, but somewhere in there is a disconnect that is ultimately not important.
i'm still courting the roughnecks and rednecks that might make the class carry a high standard
work ethic. something to look forward to i guess. maybe i'll make everyone where BVD's and
yin/yang t-shirts--w/red sun rising head bands